I would like to start by pointing out that the
title has absolutely nothing to do with Morrissey. It’s part of a conversation I heard over
lunch with my soul sistah from the Bus Stop.
A strange fellow, who reminded me of Buffalo Bill from Silence of the
Lambs, was on the phone talking to the victims of bathroom terrorism, about how
he destroyed their bathroom and how sorry he was and how it was never going to
happen again. I sure hope it doesn’t, for the sake of the victims.
On to the actual meat and potatoes of this piece
- why I love and hate Morrissey. When I
was in middle school, I really loved heavy metal music. Iron Maiden was (and still is) one of my
favorite bands, along with Anthrax, Megadeth, Exodus, Testament, Metallica. I
wore the black chucks, black concert T’s, ripped jeans - I loved Metal!! Having said that, I have an older sister who
listened to The Cure, New Order, Sisters of Mercy, and The Smiths. Basically anything that was considered
sensitive and depressing by my metal cronies.
The thing is, I secretly listened to all her cassettes and was a
closeted wannabe goth. I told no-one
because that music was for depressed sissy’s and was “uncool”. I was an uncool depressed sissy then because
I loved that music, it spoke to me in a way that I could relate to,
deeply. Enter The Smiths and that
man-loving sparrow with a golden voice, Morrissey.
The Smiths was the first band I really connected
with. Iron Maiden had great albums and the coolest mascot ever (Eddie!), but
their songs were about war and shit.
Morrissey and the Smiths sang about heartbreak, rejection, lonliness,
secret man-crushes (which I can relate to on the secret crush thing),
self-doubt, longing, you get the picture. Young adolescents dealing with
sexuality and figuring out where they fit in could all say, “that song is about
me” about any Smiths song almost (I know I did).
I ended up coming out of the closet and saying,
“the world be damned, I Love The Smiths!!”
Don’t judge me people, just love me.
I became a number one fan and had all the albums and think I found my
sensitive side. I wish I could have seen
them live but they broke up when I was 9 so I was really late to the party but
the point is I got there, ok? Fuck! Why are you so judgemental? Sorry I was
caught in a moment. Anywho, I grew up,
and I still loved The Smiths and Morrissey.
Cut to August of 2012. Morrissey was on tour and was going to be in
Seattle that November! I became overwhelmed with joy and bought some tickets
because I knew this was my chance to finally see him!!! This man rarely tours
anymore and I haven’t lived in or near a city in my adult life where I would
have a chance to see him so I had to this time.
I had to because I would never get to see The Smiths (Morrissey is a
little bitch and wants no part of a reunion) and seeing Morrissey live would be
the closest I would ever get to that and also, because his music meant so much
to me.
So it’s a week before the concert and the show
is cancelled. Great sadness falls upon
me, my sister and my bff. We were all so
excited and anticipating this concert because we all shared a love of The
Smiths and Morrissey, the color black, and depression. Turns out Morrissey’s mum is gravely sick and
being a good son, he flies back to England to be with her in her time of
need. Plus she’s old and might die and
stuff. We get over it but are really
disappointed. January 2013, the show is
rescheduled for March 2013 but now I have no one to share this event with. Or so I think.
My BFF says “they added a show in Vegas in
February, you should fly down here so we can cry and share this moment”. I say yes, of course. Meanwhile, there are all these other shows
getting added and getting cancelled and rescheduled, Morrissey has a bleeding
ulcer and a UTI and some other health issues.
Then he gets the bronchitis (ain’t nobody got time for that!!!)
hemorrhoids, an ingrown toenail, papercuts, rocket ass, a pimple, heartburn,
and bunions. Shows keep getting added,
cancelled, rescheduled and my BFF and I fear our show will get cancelled to due
to pneumonia, a yeast infection, menstrual cramps, pink eye, athletes foot,
mumps, cholera; we are scared this fucker is going to die from the plague!!!
I get a text from BFF saying “that
motherfucker’s show got cancelled” even though it was supposed to be his first
show back from battling diphtheria, arthritis, crohn’s disease, the avian flu,
SARS, strep throat, and bacterial vaginosis.
BFF and I are pissed. We vow to
find him and break his legs and tie him up and force feed him veal and assorted
pork products (he is a militant vegetarian - see Meat is Murder). Our love of Morrissey has given way to hate
and bitterness and fantasies of how we can hurt him, including taking a bat to
his kneecaps.
I am very angry and sad, he has cancelled on me
twice, in two different cities, due to tendonitis, hangnails, thrush, skin
cancer, eczema, boils on his ass, and ring worm. I want to look forward to the rescheduled show
in Seattle but I don’t know how. There
is a light that never goes out? How soon
is now? Shoplifters of the world unite? My sister will be joining me for the show now
and she wants to be excited too but we fear another cancellation.
March 6 2013, the show is not cancelled and we
see the best fucking show of our adult lives.
He was magnificent and I could no longer hate him because I was there,
sitting, and watching him sing and dance and sing with a voice that hasn’t aged
at all. He sang some Smiths songs as
well as some of his solo stuff and he sounded and looked great!!! It was worth
all the disappointment and my sister and I could not stop talking about what a
good fucking show that half-dead diseased motherfucker put on. What can I say, I love him once again and I
got to see him live with the one person who introduced me to him with her
cassettes, my sister.
So, that’s my long journey with Morrissey. He finally cancelled the rest of his 2013
tour due to mesothelioma, liver failure, dry skin, meningitis, gingivitis, and
arteriosclerosis. Morrissey, I hope you
get better and thank you for all the memories.
Hope the jock itch clears up.
About the Author:
About OrangeJuiceJones.
OJJ really enjoys: music, going to concerts, art, traveling, tattoos,
books, good food, booze, laughing with friends, movies, being outdoors,
coca-cola, and the company of cats. OJJ
does not enjoy: serious individuals with no sense of humor, people who hurt
animals, doing dishes, too much cheese.